I want to remember our conversation today.
Mommy : Mintu ...Love you Mintu.
Mintu: Mommy , but I dont love you.
Mommy: Thatz ok Mintu , you dont have to love me .
After the many experiences life has given me , I have come to understand that loving without getting judgemental is 'THE' thing. I will love her through and through ... I know it is not easy (considering the number of tattoos she might sport , the nay-sayings , shoulder-shrugs, arguments , denials ).
What she is doing to me is amazing !!!! I never knew I had it my capacity to be the person I am.It is almost like shez unlocking new doors inside my heart ...leading me to places within me I never knew before. I feel so new ... and so different ...in a rather nice way. Love you Mintu for that!!!
I always want to remember that she is a choice I made and loving her is not a matter of choice.If she is making it difficult for me , I know where it comes from ;)
Note to Mintu: You know what Mintu , mommy loves you anyways. But you better be good!!!
Mommy : Mintu ...Love you Mintu.
Mintu: Mommy , but I dont love you.
Mommy: Thatz ok Mintu , you dont have to love me .
After the many experiences life has given me , I have come to understand that loving without getting judgemental is 'THE' thing. I will love her through and through ... I know it is not easy (considering the number of tattoos she might sport , the nay-sayings , shoulder-shrugs, arguments , denials ).
What she is doing to me is amazing !!!! I never knew I had it my capacity to be the person I am.It is almost like shez unlocking new doors inside my heart ...leading me to places within me I never knew before. I feel so new ... and so different ...in a rather nice way. Love you Mintu for that!!!
I always want to remember that she is a choice I made and loving her is not a matter of choice.If she is making it difficult for me , I know where it comes from ;)
Note to Mintu: You know what Mintu , mommy loves you anyways. But you better be good!!!
Somehow landed in this page while my mind was wandering and was full of detachment thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI felt painful after very many conversations like this...
Father : Appan ...Love you Appan.
Appan: but I dont love you.
Finally decided to be silent and detach so that he will try to earn(or atleast I can be in peace, sounds stupid I know). That appears more painful that his words.
Your words gives me hope to keep loving without expecting..