I want to remember our conversation today.
Mommy : Mintu ...Love you Mintu.
Mintu: Mommy , but I dont love you.
Mommy: Thatz ok Mintu , you dont have to love me .
After the many experiences life has given me , I have come to understand that loving without getting judgemental is 'THE' thing. I will love her through and through ... I know it is not easy (considering the number of tattoos she might sport , the nay-sayings , shoulder-shrugs, arguments , denials ).
What she is doing to me is amazing !!!! I never knew I had it my capacity to be the person I am.It is almost like shez unlocking new doors inside my heart ...leading me to places within me I never knew before. I feel so new ... and so different ...in a rather nice way. Love you Mintu for that!!!
I always want to remember that she is a choice I made and loving her is not a matter of choice.If she is making it difficult for me , I know where it comes from ;)
Note to Mintu: You know what Mintu , mommy loves you anyways. But you better be good!!!
Mommy : Mintu ...Love you Mintu.
Mintu: Mommy , but I dont love you.
Mommy: Thatz ok Mintu , you dont have to love me .
After the many experiences life has given me , I have come to understand that loving without getting judgemental is 'THE' thing. I will love her through and through ... I know it is not easy (considering the number of tattoos she might sport , the nay-sayings , shoulder-shrugs, arguments , denials ).
What she is doing to me is amazing !!!! I never knew I had it my capacity to be the person I am.It is almost like shez unlocking new doors inside my heart ...leading me to places within me I never knew before. I feel so new ... and so different ...in a rather nice way. Love you Mintu for that!!!
I always want to remember that she is a choice I made and loving her is not a matter of choice.If she is making it difficult for me , I know where it comes from ;)
Note to Mintu: You know what Mintu , mommy loves you anyways. But you better be good!!!
1 comment:
Somehow landed in this page while my mind was wandering and was full of detachment thoughts.
I felt painful after very many conversations like this...
Father : Appan ...Love you Appan.
Appan: but I dont love you.
Finally decided to be silent and detach so that he will try to earn(or atleast I can be in peace, sounds stupid I know). That appears more painful that his words.
Your words gives me hope to keep loving without expecting..
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