Music lost a note today...

Music is a huge part of my life. Nothing else in  my life has been so constant , so impactful and so omni-potent.

There is no moment or feeling that I cannot relate to music. Life, death and everything in between...I feel,  has a musical under current. Love, friendships, parenting , reading, showers, sleep-overs, partying, loneliness, pain , make-outs, fall-outs, all-nighters , early mornings, work-outs, ponderings, wanderings, working, learning, yearning, praying, growing... music has been my constant companion. I love the way music makes me feel ...like I am never alone , that I am understood and that I am enough.

Today marks the lost of a musical treasure, a legend of a kind...a presence, as primal as a musical note. SPB Sir is no more ...  I am terribly heart-broken. It hurts like hell . I remember a phase in life where I had a good 4 years of crying and still have n't been able to get over.  I think the feeling of missing SPB Sir is something that I will never be able to get over...ever. Every song  of his that I listen to now, even the joyous or romantic ones, evoke a sense of overwhelming grief.May be it is the initial impact. May be the reality and rawness of the passing-on will sink in and I will not feel so much grief or pain. 

Will I ever dry out of tears ... I will know as time goes by. I will have to give myself some time. Grieve as much,  let the heart feel hurt , give pain its due...and then, celebrate his music , be thankful for the abundance he has showered. His music is not his only giving... he has given me an understanding of how you can be impacting lives , all by doing just what you do. I am overwhelmed by the magnitude. His life is a true example of a life well-lived , a life of purpose. RIP SPB Sir ...I will love you always...